slowly but surely trying to pull this house together. its a constant work in progress and for my type a personality, it drives me nuts. i want it all done and perfect yesterday. i'm never one that can enjoy the journey. i always want to jump ahead. recently nathan bought me a book by Eben Alexander called Proof of Heaven. i HATE reading y'all. HATE. i would do anything in school to not read a book: cliff notes, movies, cheating, ANYTHING. theres a handful of books that i've read and love (man's search for meaning by viktor frankl being my all time fav) but I'm just too visual for it. i need pictures, lots of them. not to mention, i am a skimmer. i get highlights and move on, which defeats reading. i'm also notorious for reading the last chapter first. like if i have to read the book, i need to know how its going to end. i'm learning this is a major character flaw that i have. when nathan first asked me if i would read it i said "is there a movie of it yet?" but the more i thought about it, the more i realized i'll read anything nathan tells me to read at this point (and yes nathan, i am like 50 pages deep so far.)
having a brother with brain cancer (glioblastoma) has completely changed so much of the way i view life. the brother i was ALWAYS teaching everything to my whole life is now schooling me. whatever he has to say, i want to listen. and this is not just for fear of me not getting to have conversations later with him (although thats partially it) but its because i see how much God is teaching him and i'm sitting at his feet waiting for the next word he says because i want to learn too. i'm constantly seeing how involved God is in everything that has been happening with nathan and i am drawn to want to see more. its a beautiful thing.
i got a little sidetracked (I'm totally ADD, ANOTHER character flaw) but i'm trying to enjoy the journey of things. the journey is supposed to be half the fun, right? so anyway. i've been trying to figure out what things the house is lacking so i can be on the hunt for them. definitely still need a chair in the twins room and some art, majorly. but is it a terrible idea to hang art above their cribs? i just picture them knocking it off and getting as hurt as i did when one of our deer skulls fell off the wall onto my head and gave me 7 staples. wondering if wall papering that wall is a better idea (or will it totally break the bank!?) i've found some awesome wallpapers lately and think it could be kind of awesome.
send me your thoughts! plus also tips on how to enjoy the journey ;)